Thursday, December 09, 2010

A Retraction, An Apology, and A Lesson Learned

Once upon a time there was a woman who completely made an ass of herself. You see, this woman has a major flaw in her personality. When she gets pissed off she has a tendency to vent before thinking. She says things, that really, if she cooled off first and gathered her thoughts, well, she would never say them in the first place.

That woman? Well, she'd be me.

It was recently brought to my attention that I, once again, blew off steam without using my brain cells. In essence? I stuck my size 8 1/2 foot into my ginormous mouth.

About a year and a half ago, I wrote on It's A Schmitty Life, about someone who had angered me. I addressed an incident that had taken place that I was less than thrilled with. And while I will not apologize for the fact that I was unhappy and do feel that I had every right to be, I will apologize for the way that I reacted.

I was basically rude, obnoxious, and mean. All the things I hate to see in people. All the things I claim not to be.

And I did it all here on this blog. For the world to see.

Now, when I wrote the post, which I have since taken down, I was writing to the Internets. The faceless readers that I do not know. And though that is no excuse for my actions, I never thought in a million years that my readership would grow to include those I would know in real life. I truly thought that I could bare my soul and talk about anything because no one knew me or the subjects I was writing about.

I was wrong.

I had forgotten about the incident in question; thus, I had also forgotten that I had even written about it. If I had remembered, I would have deleted it long ago.

I am honestly sorry for the way I handled my anger. I've learned a little bit about myself and also quite a valuable lesson.

I hope to be forgiven.

To be continued.......


Leslie said...

We all get angry and everone needs to vent. It feels yucky when someone gets hurt, though. :(

meleah rebeccah said...

Oh yeah, Ive had to rip down blog posts Ive written too. And, for the very same reasons.

That woman? Well, she'd be me - TOO!


WE all have our moments. Mine was blog post is about an attitude adjustment.

kim mccafferty said...

I know, this feels like you're sending things into a faceless void, but you're not. Have retracted a few sentences in my day too. Fingers crossed for you...

Baloney said...

Shoot. Sorry to hear it. Hopefully this can mend. Most of my peeps aren't on Twitter, so I throw an occasional rant over there.

Dawn said...

Eek!! That's a bad deal.

BUT, you are a classy woman and I have no doubts you'll do (or did) what you need to to make amends.

We all screw up. Don't beat yourself up over it.

I've thought lots about creating an anonymous blog. I don't feel like I can share a lot of stuff. I have former students who read my blog. I have to be kind, funny, sweet, blah, blah, blah.... lol!