Sunday, January 06, 2008

Seeking Absolution

I have no excuse. None whatsoever. I was all my fault. I completely and utterly forgot. It is unjustifiable and reprehensible. It was just plain WRONG.

I was out Friday evening, gallivanting with a girl friend. I joined her for a movie. We gorged on popcorn and diet sodas. We had the audacity to laugh and enjoy ourselves. And our fun didn't end at the closing credits. Oh No! We continued on our merry way, I, not once remembering the day and what it meant. The degradation and humiliation I would feel upon realizing my err. Oh the shame of it all!

We shopped at a local bookstore. I searched for books and magazines that I would take pleasure in reading, all the while selfishly thinking of only myself. How dare I? As life only revolved around my happiness. There I stood, leisurely browsing the racks, all the while sipping on a hot chocolate. And it was topped with whipped cream. WHIPPED.CREAM! Satan's drink, I tell you. The sheer gluttony of it all makes me bow my head in self-reproach.

I returned home. A smile was plastered on my face, I'm sure, as I basked in my own self-indulgent euphoria. I prepared for bed and slipped beneath the sheets a few minutes after midnight. The day had ended, the time had passed. The moment was gone, forever. It was a point of no return. Eternally lost.

Another day was cast aside, still I had no idea of what I had done. No recollection of what had come and gone. And then today, in an instant, I felt my lungs deflate. It was as though I had taken a blow to my stomach. How could this be? How could I be so self-absorbed?

Can I be forgiven? Is it possible? I am so truly sorry and understand if I am not given mercy. I do not deserve any.

I extend this rose as an atonement for my thoughtlessness. I know it can not completely vindicate my actions, but I hope someday I can make amends. Only time will tell.

Happy 1 Year Blogiversary My Dear Blog!
It's A Schmitty Life
Est. January 4, 2007

15 comments:

BlondeMomBlog (Jamie) said...

Happy Blogiversary!

Sounds like you had a lovely time out celebrating, whether you realized it or not. ;)

Misslionheart said...

Shame on you....

I'm taking you off my blogroll immediately!

Chantal said...

We forgive you.

My 4 year blogiversary is coming up. Ask me if I know when? Not even 100% sure.

Elle said...

Sounds like a fun time! Happy anny!

Laura said...

Sounds like a wonderful me-time...well deserved!

Congrats and happy first blogiversary!!!

fold my laundry please said...

Happy Blogoversary! Here's wishing you many more!

Life As I Know It said...

Happy Blog Anniversary!

EE said...

LOL...we'll forgive you THIS time!
Congrats on making it a year!!!!

Zephra said...

It was a happy day when I discovered your blog. Many happy years ahead for you.

Annie said...

Happy Blogiversary!

Shauna Loves Chocolate said...

Happy Blogiversary!!

Leigh said...

How could you ever forget? Shame. Shame. You have some making up to do.
Congrats!

Valerie said...

Well just for forgetting you owe us a cookie! LOL happy blogiversary

Jessica said...

When you said Satan's drink, I died laughing!! : ) (Found you through Leigh.)

meleah rebeccah said...

Happy Blog-o-versarry!

Whipped Cream IS the devil's drink!


You deserve a GOOD time every now and then!